NOW I KNOW WHY I HAVE SO MANY AQUAiNTAiNCES AND SO FEW CLOSE FRiENDS. ONCE SOMEONE DOES ONE DiRTY THiNG TO ME, I BASiCALLY CUT THEM OUT OF MY LiFE FOREVER. I HOLD GRUDGES FOR THE LONGEST... BASiCALLY NOW I TALK TO ABOUT EiGHT PEOPLE ON THE PHONE. SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE CALL, BUT I JUST STOPPED PiCKiNG UP... WHY WOULD I WANT TO TALK TO SOMEONE WHO CLAiMS TO BE MY FRiEND THAT LiED TO ME FOR NO REASON AT ALL? WHY WOULD I WANNA TALK TO SOMEONE WHO IS MEAN TO ME BUT STiLL CALLS? WHY WOULD I WANT TO TALK TO SOMEONE WHO HANGS UP ON ME AND THEN CALLS ME BACK?

MORGAN, HAiLiE, MARViN, TARA, WHiTNEY, KJ, TAY, JAY, TiFFANY, THANK Y`ALL FOR BEiNG THERE FOR ME REGARDLESS OF ANYTHiNG AND LiSTENiNG TO MY ADViCE. I KNOW Y`ALL CARE FOR ME AND KNOW THAT I CARE FOR Y`ALL BACK. =] ESPECiALLY YOU MARViN, YOU CARE ABOUT ALL MY PROBLEMS, WHETHER THEY INVOLVE YOU OR NOT. YOU`RE THE ONLY BOY THAT I CAN TELL ANYTHiNG TO AND I KNOW YOU WON`T STOP BEiNG MY BROTHER. I LUV YOU SO MUCH!!

HEY =] WASN`T FEELiNG TOO GOOD TODAY SO I STAYED HOME... I`M BORED. I CAN`T WAiT TiLL FRiDAY. AS USUAL, Y`ALL KNOW WHERE I`MMA BE!! I NEED TO BUY A NEW SHiRT AND SOME GLASSES, IONO THOUGH. I WiSH MY SONG WOULD WORK!! GOSH, EVERYBODY IS ON THiS THiNG, I MiGHT TAKE MY SiTE OFF OR SOMETHING BECAUSE TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE GETTiNG XANGAS. SUPPOSEDLY THERE IS SUPPOSED TO BE THiS PARTY IT`S NOT FOR SURE THOUGH, DON`T COME UP TO ME AND BE LiKE "I HEARD YOU WAS HAViNG A PARTY" B/C IT`S NOT TRUE, AND IF I ACTUALLY LiKE YOU, I`LL LET YOU KNOW. AND HALF THE PEOPLE ASKiNG WON`T EVEN BE INViTED B/C I`M DOiNG THiS FOR RODNEY AND HE DON`T FUKK WiTH ALOT OF Y`ALL, SO YOU WON`T BE GOiNG =] THERE`S ONE PERSON THAT EVERYONE KNOWS I`M NOT GON LET BE THERE, SO THEY CAN FUKK OUT OF HERE. THEY KNOW THEY AiN`T GON STEP FOOT IN MY HOUSE.

SHOUTOUTS::

NiNA- FUKK WHAT ANYONE SAYS ABOUT US, SiS

HAiLiE- YOU`RE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME,  I LUV YOU!!

JASMiNE- YOU`RE SO PRETTY, YOU`RE THE SWEETEST GURL I KNOW

BETH- YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGH AND I`M HAPPY WE MET EACHOTHER

MAYA- YOU`RE SO REAL , I CAN TALK TO YOU ABOUT ANYTHING

MO- I MiSS YOU SOOO MUCH AND I HOPE YOU CAN GO FRiDAY

MY COOLEST HOMEGURL WHiTNEY- YOU`RE CRAZY AND I KNOW WE WOULD FiGHT FOR EACHOTHER 

ONE OF MY BEST BFFS TARA- I LUV YOU SOO MUCH I AND I HOPE YOU GO

KENNEDY- YOU`VE ALWAYS BEEN REAL AND YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I`M GOiNG THROUGH

TAY- YOU`RE MY BROTHER AND I CAN`T WAiT TiLL YOU COME DOWN HERE TO SEE ME (Y`ALL HAPPY??) LMFAO

IAN- I`LL ALWAYS LUV YOU NO MATTER WHAT

RODNEY- I HOPE WE HAVE THiS PARTY NiGGA!! I KNOW IT`S GON BE CRAZY

DARWiN- SORRY FOR THE TiTTY BUMP!! lOl

KEiTH- I`M HAPPY WE COOL AGAiN

TROY- I`M SORRY I FELL ASLEEP THAT DAY lOl

KJ- I`M SO HAPPY WE TALKED AND I`M GON CALL YOU TONiGHT

ETC.

HAVEN`T UPDATED IN A WHiLE SO I JUSS WANTED TO SEY HEY!!

MAN, THiS WEEK && WEEKEND HAVE BEEN SO FUN. BESiDES SOME DRAMA, IT`S BEEN OKAY. I`VE JUST BEEN NOTiCiNG THAT LiKE, EVERYONE IS CHANGiNG ON ME?? IT`S HARD TO DEAL WiTH, CAUSE I CAN`T FiGURE SOME PEOPLE OUT, BUT I`M TRYiNG TO DEAL WiTH IT.

YESTERDAY, ME && HAiLiE WENT TO THE ABC CENTER && KiLLED IT!! WE HAD SO MUCH FUN, MAN. I DANCED WiTH SO MANY BOYS. ME && HER HUNG WiTH NESSA, BRE, CORRiNA && MY NEW HOMEGURL TAQUiERA (SORRY GURL, IT`S NO WAY IN THE WORLD I CAN SPELL YOUR NAME lOl) I JUST MET THAT GURL YESTERDAY BUT SHE`S REAL COOL. I COULD BARELY DANCE THOUGH, B/C MY GAUCHOS WERE TOO BiG && SOMETHiNG KEPT HAPPENiNG!! LMFAO BUT I DANCED WiTH THiS DUDE AND THEN I FELL OUT ON THE FLOOR, I WAS SO TiRED && THEN HE PiCKED MY ASS BACK UP AGAiN, WTF!! lOl IT WAS FUN THOUGH.

BUT YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, OMG. TELL ME WHY THiS GURL WAS KiLLiNG IT WiTH THiS DUDE, THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN, ME && HAiLiE SEE HER && THE DUDE SHE WiTH GO DOWN. WE WAS JOKiNG && STUFF, LiKE DANG SHE A FREAK BLAH BLAH ALL THAT THEN, ABOUT 30 MiNS LATER, SHE STiLL LAYiNG THERE. THEN THE LiGHTS CUT ON. DUDE SHE WAS WiTH DiPPED AND LEFT HER THERE. THEY START DOiNG CPR && SOME REAL CRAZY STUFF MAN, OMG. SHE HAD PASSED OUT, && SHE WASN`T TAKiNG NO AiR!! I WAS SO SCARED. PARAMEDiCS CAME, SHUT DOWN THE PARTY, IT WAS CRAZY. WE DON`T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO HER, BUT A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE WERE SAYiNG SHE DiED!! I PRAYED FOR HER, Y`ALL DO THE SAME, PLEASE!! THEN I TALKED TO TAY UNTiL FOUR THiS MORNiNG SO I ONLY HAD TWO HOURS OF SLEEP TO GO TO CHURCH ON!!

SHOUTOUTS: HAiLiE, MY SiS, NOLAND, KENNEDY (I HATE OUR LUNCH TOO GURL, lOl!! I THiNK EVERYONE DOES), JAZZiE, BETH, ALEX, NAE, ETC.

YAY! YESTERDAY, WE CALLED AROUND AND ASKED SOME PEOPLE WHERE THE PARTY WAS, &&WE FOUND IT!! MAN, IT WAS CRAZY UP THERE. I WAS WiTH JAY SOME OF THE TiME =) (lOl HAiLiE YOU FiNALLY SAW HiM). IT WAS SOOOOO FUN UP THERE, Y`ALL SHOULD HAVE WENT. THE LiNE WAS SO LONG, BUT ME && HAiLiE STOOD TOGETHER AND WE FiNALLY MADE IT IN! THEN THESE WHiTE LADiES HAD TO FRiSK US lOl AUGUSTUS WAS CRACKiNG ME UP THOUGH, HE KNOWS WHAT I MEAN lOl!! I DANCED A LOT, IT WAS REAL COOL. HOPEFULLY I`LL BE GOiNG NEXT SUNDAY, BUT YOU NEVER KNOW...

I`M SPOSE TO BE GOiNG TO WAFFLE HOUSE IN A WHiLE. BUT TODAY, I`M GETTiNG MY HAiR REDONE!! I CAN`T WAiT CAUSE IT LOOKS A MESS!!

SIGNS YOU SHOULD DUMP THE DUDE

We girls spend a lot of time looking for signs: that a boy likes us, that he likes us enough, that he likes the way we kiss, and so on. It's great to focus on clues that help us build our relationships and make them strong. But while we're on the lookout, we should also be aware of the signs that tell us a relationship has stopped being good for us. Here is Jellybean's guide to the top 8 signs that it's time to ditch your dude and improve your life by moving on.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #1: YOUR SMILE IS GONE.
If it seems like a long time since you laughed when you were with him, it's time to say buh-bye. Relationships are not always perfect, but you should be happy more than not.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #2: YOU'VE STOPPED TALKING.
Even when things are rocky, they can improve if you two can talk things out. When no one is talking, things will only go downhill. If bored or awkward silences have become the norm and you used to talk to each other, the magic is gone and it's time to move on.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #3: YOUR FRIENDS ALL HATE HIM.
Your friends aren't blinded by love, so they can see his flaws more consciously than you can. Yes, it's true not everyone can love your guy. But if they all say he's not worth your time, believe them.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #4: YOU HAVE VERY DIFFERENT VALUES.
It's okay to disagree on the minor things, like the best movie of all time or your favorite restaurant for burgers. But if you have major differences of opinion about major things like how a person should treat others, religion, or he does drugs and/or alcohol (and you don't), dump him.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #5: YOU'RE NEVER IN SYNC WITH EACH OTHER.
Does this sound like you: whenever you're hyper, he's tired and doesn't feel like doing anything. When he's psyched to go out, you suddenly feel exhausted. If that's you two, your mismatched energy is sending a big message that the relationship isn't working out.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #6: YOU LIE FOR HIM ALL THE TIME.
Do you find yourself exaggerating his good qualities to your friends, because the truth is less impressive? If you have to lie to make him sound good, he's not. Ditch him.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #7: YOU'RE NOT YOURSELF ANYMORE.
You feel like you can't do what you want or say what's on your mind for fear of starting a fight. You used to be talkative and fun-loving, now you don't know where that person went. If this is you, it's time to get out of the relationship. A boyfriend should make you be the best you that you can be... not steal your soul.

DUMP THE DUDE SIGN #8: HE HAS PHYSICALLY ABUSED YOU.
If he has grabbed, pushed, hit, shoved, punched, or slammed you, even ONCE, he is abusive. You need to RUN from this relationship. If you're scared to leave him, that's just more proof you should. Talk to a parent or a friend who can support and protect you, but ditch the dude immediately.